I always hurt somewhere. That’s just how it is in this body. Pain can be so loud. Sometimes the volume is down low, barely a whisper, but sometimes it goes to eleven. I don’t get to decide. My body does it for me. Recently, for a …
Tag: health
Hurry Up and Wait
I collected another bracelet last week. I added another paper one to the pile, the kind you have to cut off your wrist after a long day in oncology. I collect them. I don’t know why, but I add them to a growing stack right after …
A Scanxiety Timeline
It’s that time of the year again, folks. It’s scan time! For those of you who don’t know, scan time is the time where us folks with oddly multiplying cells get raked over with a fine toothed comb to see if our cells are, in fact, …
I Am 1000% Not Okay
I counted nineteen hearts on my front window today. Nineteen bright and colorful hearts. One heart for each day we’ve voluntarily isolated ourselves at home because of Covid-19. I don’t know why I started doing it, but it’s given me a small purpose. Each morning I …
I Tried A Weighted Blanket So You Don’t Have To
I know this may come as a surprise to you because I am hip to the lingo of today’s youth, fam, but I am old enough to be going through the change. You know, the change. *wink* As a result of the change, I am experiencing …
I Need You To Stop Trying To ‘Help’ Me
I was polite the first time I was offered long distance reiki as a cure for my disease. I even recall saying thank you. I was newly diagnosed. I needed all the help I could get. And, after all, she was just ‘helping.’ The second offer …
My Menopause Bucket List
It’s official, folks. After much soul searching, many vials of blood drawn, and countless tears shed onto potato chips being shoved into my gob at breakneck speed, I am finally ready to accept that the existential malaise I’ve been experiencing lately is due to THE CHANGE. …
When Your Sick Friends Need You, This Is All You Have To Do
Scan time is upon us me once again. In three days I’ll drive three hours to sit in a waiting room and wait impatiently for someone to call my name. I’ll answer all the questions I’ve answered too many times before. No, I’m not claustrophobic. No, …
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Resolve to Reconnect
This post is the first in a series, The Other Side of Being Sick, chronicling my path to learning how to be well once again. We relocated our entire life just months after my tumor was declared dead. An emotional whirlwind of boxes, paperwork, and teary …
