Dear Friend, Hello. It’s been awhile. I don’t even know where to begin. I suppose this would be the place where I’d ask how you are, but the harsh truth is I no longer care. Saying that does not make my chest swell with pride. It …
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My Illness Is My Identity And There’s Nothing Wrong With That
We bought a house at the beginning of the year. Meeting our neighbors has been slow going thanks to the pandemic, but since vaccination has allowed us to live more life we’re starting to get to know everybody. And as you get to know me, you …
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Will Joe Exotic Save the World?
Netflix has announced they will be gracing humanity with a Tiger King sequel and, according to the current state of my mental health, the timing could not be more perfect. The first Tiger King met us at a dark time. The entire world had basically shut …
Where My Leg Took Me This Week
I always hurt somewhere. That’s just how it is in this body. Pain can be so loud. Sometimes the volume is down low, barely a whisper, but sometimes it goes to eleven. I don’t get to decide. My body does it for me. Recently, for a …
Hurry Up and Wait
I collected another bracelet last week. I added another paper one to the pile, the kind you have to cut off your wrist after a long day in oncology. I collect them. I don’t know why, but I add them to a growing stack right after …
A Scanxiety Timeline
It’s that time of the year again, folks. It’s scan time! For those of you who don’t know, scan time is the time where us folks with oddly multiplying cells get raked over with a fine toothed comb to see if our cells are, in fact, …
I Am 1000% Not Okay
I counted nineteen hearts on my front window today. Nineteen bright and colorful hearts. One heart for each day we’ve voluntarily isolated ourselves at home because of Covid-19. I don’t know why I started doing it, but it’s given me a small purpose. Each morning I …
I Tried A Weighted Blanket So You Don’t Have To
I know this may come as a surprise to you because I am hip to the lingo of today’s youth, fam, but I am old enough to be going through the change. You know, the change. *wink* As a result of the change, I am experiencing …
I Need You To Stop Trying To ‘Help’ Me
I was polite the first time I was offered long distance reiki as a cure for my disease. I even recall saying thank you. I was newly diagnosed. I needed all the help I could get. And, after all, she was just ‘helping.’ The second offer …
I'm Sick and So Are You 